Dear Steemians,
Hope you are well by the grace of almighty creator.Day by day i'm becoming irregular in my favorite steemit platform, because of my some personal problem, I never passing through like those kind of situation ever. I'm not getting any support from my family, from my friends, from my colleague and from my relative also, because this problem is very personal, i just unable to share it with anyone, who are really close to me. I'm bachelor, yet not married, If i have wife, i was unable to share it also with her.
About one week ago this problem was created for my simple mistake, 7 day's has been passed way i just unable to find out the solution for it. In my life i was very confidence with my thinking, patience and skill. But at this moment i have no any confidence on my-self, i just losing my thinking power and also losing my patience.
On the other hand i'm in huge pressure with my official work, in office hours i'm trying to pay my attention on my work but fail again again. My daily task become pending it also making a huge mental pressure on me.
For relief from this condition today i use to take drugs thinking that it will help me get rid from this situation for some while and continuously i'm smoking but it was really bad idea, i have no any practice to taking any drugs normally or occasionally, i have just one addiction that is steem addiction and i was really very happy with this addiction.
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But today i just make a great mistake to taking drugs, it's not only effecting my whole body but also it effecting on my mind, i just feeling like that i'm not alive and my tension are rising more than before, i just feeling very afraid about the future, what will going to happening. The temperate is really very cool today, because it was really heavy rain in my city today, but i'm randomly sweating, my pressure is becoming very high, and feeling like vomiting.
It's midnight in my country, I just missing everyone those i really love, but unable to contact with them, because most them are sleeping, so i just opened my laptop and started to writing what i'm feeling, I just don't know what i'm writing, please forgive me everyone, because i'm not in sense.
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Just only thing is randomly coming on mind that taking drugs is not the better option for forgetting our personal problem, it just help to multiply of our tension.
In our society there have a really very wrong concept on drugs, those people who are use to taking drugs regularly, they just think that if they in tense, drugs helps them to forget every pain of their life and it's makes them refresh, but they are absolutely wrong, drugs just make them more tense when they were in normal mind. Then they are use to enjoying there abnormal situation with huge pain, this way they are getting addicted with feeling pain much more than their normal mind. This way they become addicted with drugs.
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Dear all of my fellow steemians, please pray for me that i can able to recover my-self from my personal problem, Please inspire me commenting and Up-voting on my post, that i can able forget my problem for some-while, and can enjoy steeming.
Stay blessing and thank you all for read my post.
